The Truth Is...
A little over 21 years ago, I entered and started taking over (incarnating into) a 32-year old vehicle (body). I don't know exactly how it works, but recognize that prior to this incarnation (during this generation) I had a close association with this specific vehicle (body) for some time - how long, I don't know, nor does it matter. This vehicle had been "tagged," or picked for me because its combined experiences and genetic blueprint would provide me with the very opportunities needed to develop the characteristics that would make me more like my Older Members, more like members of the Next Evolutionary Level Above Human (the "Next Level"), what you know as the Kingdom of God.
Before this vehicle (body) had any conscious knowledge of the Next Level, it must have been given a "deposit" of Next Level mind, because there was at least a hope and desire for something more than the human kingdom had to offer. That hope became desperation - there HAD to be a Designer, there HAD to be something more, for every institution - marriage, family, religion, government, education - every person, everything that the human existence had to offer the vehicle personally fell short, failed, or required compromise of principles, compromise of values, compromise in relationships of all kinds - compromise of truth and knowledge. The vehicle felt guilty for having these thoughts and feelings and tried to keep them hidden, even to itself - kept under control, feeling it was the result of its own failure to see things in a better light.
Just prior to my incarnation, this vehicle experienced a kind of "revelation" while standing on top of a tall building looking down at people scurrying about, cars, buses, phone lines, roadways, smog, billboards, etc. Nothing particular was going through the brain, but for several days questions about the vehicle's purpose had dominated all thoughts. Suddenly, it was like watching a huge screen, showing the world - all humanity - the extent of ignorance, lack of development, the corruption, selfishness, and greed - the big picture, as from afar, in a moment of extreme clarity, and it was the most overwhelming emotion the vehicle had ever experienced. It was incomprehensible how it all happened and why humans made the choices they made. After the experience, a feeling of emptiness followed...except for this persistent hope and desire for something more.
Within a couple of weeks, there was to be a meeting with a man and woman talking about Human Individual Metamorphosis. When Ti and Do walked through the door at the meeting place, this vehicle went into shock. I called out, "I KNOW them. I KNOW them." At that time there wasn't enough of me in the vehicle to understand that it was the mind I knew, but I feel there was probably some kind of briefing prior to my incarnation that allowed me to recognize even the vehicles they wore. Now, you can say, "Well, she was unhappy and vulnerable and a victim of her weakness." But I know that it was just the opposite. Those adjectives may have applied to the vehicle when it gave in to human indulgences that only numbed the pain temporarily but never left the vehicle satisfied - and NEVER filled the heart. And the more the vehicle tried to play the human and humanitarian games, the more it felt like it was living a lie and the more sick it felt inside.
When I met Ti and Do, my life in this generation started. And it was a rough start. What conflict I had with this vehicle at first - its experiences had made it become untrusting, skeptical, full of negativity, bitterness, fear, and pain. Then along came these two individuals who spoke softly, with a decided lack of confidence but clearly from authority. They were obviously not "selling" anything, but it was equally obvious that what information they shared was an opportunity that would not come around again if I didn't have the guts to respond with my heart. You can read about the knowledge they shared with us that day. For me it made all the pieces fit. It made sense in a very practical way. They answered my questions and continued to answer my questions in ways that were proof to me that they had to have come from an evolutionary level above human.
Aside from all the "high falootin'" knowledge that our Older Members have shared with us over the years, to me the most impressive gift they have given us, and continue to give us, are the ways, guidelines, and help in changing our conduct and behavior so that we can be among Members of the Next Level without running any of them off. By changing, we are literally becoming new creatures.
I could write books about what my Older Members have done for us, and for me personally, but you still wouldn't get the picture. It's because there's nothing in your experience, nothing on this planet that is an equivalent, so you have nothing to compare this to. Ti and Do did not just tell us what to do, although they let us know in minute detail the way Members of the Next Level would do everything. But it has mostly been their sustained example of restrained, refined behavior that has been the strongest and best teacher, while at the same time increased my desire to be more like them, made me want more than anything to be with them. You can't imagine the level of discipline that is required to attain the vehicular control that would make you acceptable as a new beginner in the Next Level. And since they do not force you to do anything, you must on your own see the value in their ways, and want to be a part of what they are with all your heart, with all your mind, and all your soul, or you will want to go another direction. There's no way you can pretend to like it - it just won't work. And there's no way you can pretend to become a new creature - actual change has to take place.
I'm here because a long time ago, for some reason, I caught the Next Level's eye (why I was honored in this way, I don't know, but boy, am I grateful); I recognized my Older Members, and acted on what I felt and heard. I am extremely thankful to be here and that my Older Members have been so patient with me. Ti and Do and the Next Level are my life. Without them, there is nothing - literally. Nothing else is real. They have shown me pure love. They have shown me how to work to be free of influences and anything that is not Next Level mind. We have laughed heartily together, and there is nothing on Earth more enjoyable than Next Level humor. On rare occasions we have cried together while healing from a difficult growth experience. My Older Members frequently question themselves and doubt that they are being clean vessels for their Older Members (they question whether they are falling down on the job). I can't see this. It would embarrass them to see themselves as I see them. From where I stand, they are redefining "perfection" all the time. They have proven every day, every hour, every minute - from the time we first came into contact - to consistently conduct themselves in the most refined, most sensible, most compassionate, the highest way you can imagine - without being pious, saccharine, or self-centered in any way. I KNOW they have the AUTHORITY of the Next Level. I love them with all my heart, mind, and soul. Nothing else matters to me but to be a part of them in whatever way the Next Level sees fit. There is nothing and nobody on this planet or off of it that can keep me from my only Lifeline.
Thank you, Ti and Do, for your teachings, your caring for our every single need, and for all the ways you have helped me. And please give me YOUR closeness with your Older Member, YOUR determination and application of effort, so that I can make the changes that will bring me closer to you.
|April 3, 1996|